So how's everything today? Are you all okay? Fine? Good to hear so do I. Yesterday was so much different than other days. I felt so lazy to get up from the bed and decided to lay in my bed. Create some stories on my mind, thinking too much like a lot, bad thoughts, good thoughts, I could feel strange feeling that I ever felt before. Asking myself 'what is going on right now?'. I don't have an answer, but as always I'm comforting myself and keep saying that 'everything is fine darling'. Yesterday was the day I replay all the memories back then and bring it up to present, how much I've been hurt before this and how strong I am to face it. I can't believe that I can be strong like this..I just can't imagine how. I sometimes think that I can't function very well in future like I used to. Like I can't breath anymore, tired to live the life, tired to smile, tired to pretend..everything in this world get bored and tired. The whole me is dead. I'm too tired to continue this life. There so many problems when I grow up..What will happen when I'm 30?Holy shit. Xoxo