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I am exactly out of my mind. I mean like am I crazy hurting myself just because of that one person. Ah c'mon kyna. Im pretty sure that Im having a problem that I can't even speak out with the one who I love before this. Did I mention 'before this'? Woa that's just too soon. Mmm who cares? The one who I love before this asked me to stay positive and told me that not to think so deep. Am I going that deep boy? Nevermind shouldn't ask you. So I do motivate myself every morning when I wake up and every night when I go to sleep that someone out there must be waiting for me if right now the one who I love before this isn't for me. You know what I mean. Having a damaged relationship are so stressful so do I. I don't know whether this is gonna take a long time to get back normal or both of we choose our own path. I had do my job what I supposed to do and I did. Im not being so emotional already lately. Because I trust that myself are very good when it comes at this kind of problem. Also my heart and my brain did it..good job my beloved organs. The process is going so well. If this is the ending, I am not ready to be with someone else in my life for a moment. But I still appreciate for those who trynna to get in my life, you guys are so sweet xo. But Im sorry, I am so immune to love. That means I already get hurt once, so for the second time I still able to smile. Just..when I smile you are not the reason anymore. So many type of 'love' and so many defination for love. And...I am so done with love. See yaa, sorry this blog is not belong to me. So Im not sure whether there still a post from me or not.